Children of the Most High God, what's crackalacking????? Happy New Year, guys. Yes. This is my own new year. It is when you wake up that it is morning. So...yeah...happy new year. I can't believe January is almost over. Took you long enough, freaking January!!!!! Is it me, or was this the longest month ever? It felt like it was 2 months joined together! I just tire.
I wasn't a fan of this particular January...through no fault of January's, mind you. I think what it was for me, was that I had a pretty depressing start in the month. No...nothing drastic happened but I just was not happy. Don't get me wrong, I was happy to see a new year. I was happy to have all my family alive and well. I was happy to have all my teeth (the ones the dentist didn't get to in the early days of ijekuje) fingers and toes and be in good health. I was happy to have love all around me. I was happy to be alive. But...then again, I just wasn't happy with where I was in life and was pretty frustrated that another year had come and still so many lofty goals/dreams/desires yet to be fulfilled/achieved. I came to all sorts of realisations about all manner of things: my relationship status and how I perceived it to affect my parents, my time and time management, my dreams, my goals, my career prospects, friendships, finance, prayer life, all sorts. They weren't pretty and they made me deeply unhappy.
Ms Erykah Badu once said "work ain't honest, but it pays the bills". I started work today, after my annual leave (most of which I spent in Lagos with my family, pretty much hibernating) Asides from being back to work to earn bread, I have come to really appreciate the social aspect of my job. I have realised that I've become such a hermit that I won't go in my way, talkless of out of my way to socialise any more these days. I am truly grateful for my work friends that have become sisters, who are always available for laughs, prayers, gists, encouragement, whatever. I couldn't be more grateful,to be back at work (but see me in a couple of weeks...I may be singing a different tune or whatever)
I came upon an instagram post put up by one of my favourite instagram comedians (@notkarltonbanks) where he talked about deciding that his 2016 was going to start again in February and how January was a trial run. It was funnyish but it resonated with me. I didn't make the most of my January, what with me being all up in my feelings and what not, so it feels like a dry run of a month. I have decided that February would be a do over. I'm hoping to stop and smell the roses a little bit more and not put so much pressure on myself without being too complacent (a tall order). I'm also hoping to burst out of my cocoon like a newly minted butterfly in the month of February and do a lot more of the things I've always talked about - so help me God!
I have started planning out some of my posts and I hope to keep up with my mandate at the inception of this blog: to post every week (well, that mandate has been tweaked somewhat. I posted every Monday and some days in between in the early days, but still...we move!) and just connect more with you guys. I thank you all for always being there even when I abscond like a rascal.
So...I am initiating the reset sequence, hitting the big red button and wiping the slate clean. 2016 for me, starts in 3...2....1....